I have managed to overcome my depression, if that is what I had. But only by sorting out my diet. Now that I do not eat anything that can trigger my symptoms I never have obsessional thoughts and I never get down in the dumps but if I end up eating just one thing by mistake, not only are all my symptoms triggered so is that terrible stuff in my head triggered
The terrible stuff in my head, is always about how everything is my fault and if only I did this and if only I did that. for the whole time that my IBS is triggered and I am flaring these thoughts yack on and on but as soon as the flares are over I, my happy self emerges, I never make this thing stop, I never make myself get happy. I am simply a happy person when I am not flaring but when I am I struggle with everything, lifting grasping, walking etc and I cannot get my head to be anything like my normal self
But what I do do nowadays, no matter what is going on, if I am poorly I look after myself, kind of like I am a loving aunt. I let all the obsessive stuff get on with itself but I talk to myself with the kindest voice I can and do things as kindly as I can for myself
Perhaps it is this that you are talking about, when you say have good thoughts. I do do everything I can to have good thoughts. I play lovely music and garden and watch fun film, comedy etc, and pray and meditate, but this chemical reaction thing is very very strong, it overwhelms my body and my brain. I am just not myself at all for those days.
I am lucky that I have learned how to deal with this without medication, and again I think it is these things you are refering to. So I am not against anything what folk are saying here. And because I know you all suffer in a similar way, maybe not with this obsessional thinking but with ill health, and I knwo you are all on my side, you are not playing mind games or anything like that, I can listen and I can appreciate what you are all saying because I know it is all said with kindness. But depression itself is not just about being a negative person. It can occur simply, in my case at least, just becasue of something I have eaten
I am extremely lucky, I have actually worked out every single thing that can make me ill, every single thing. And this was made so much easier when I came here when you all told me about the starch lactose and sucrose. Since being here I have made the last few adjustments I needed to and now I am not flaring at all
This is the first time in 20 years that i have not had at least one flare in one week. I think I have been here about 9 weeks now and I have still not had a flare and I have not been depressed either LOL
Not only not depressed, I have actually had a few arguments (this is proper rare for me, I normally avoid arguements, because they make me flare) but Ihave had arguments and not flared
I am not saying I want to argue now, I still do not really want to be arguing with folk, but now I know arguements will not leave me disabled I can argue.
For years I ahve been told my need for no arguements is a sign I am insecure. But now I am willing to argue it seems I am no longer insecure LOL
Do you kind of see what I am saying here?
A person who is very poorly with depression today, could find out tomorrow something is triggering that depression, remove it and suddenly become well.
My husbands brother has just found out his illness is being caused by electromagnetism but now he has removed everything electrical out of his house he is much better
I have seen this same thing with chemical and weather changes and tonnes of other stuff
I am not making excuses for folkthat moan a lot. I cannot stand being around depressed folk any more than anybody else, but it is not just about being happy and positive in some cases it is wise to consider other kinds of triggers
But I am going to contradict myself once more here, because youare right about learning some skills and changing your routine so that when you are poorly with depression you can be kind to yourself
Love and stuff
Joanne
