My Mom was a very intelligent beautiful person. What MS did to her was really the worst case scenario. I watched her die a horrible death. I could not imagine having AS as well as MS. Watching my Mom deteriorate over a period of 10 years then die was the hardest thing I have ever encountered in my life. I find it so hard now to be objective on a subjective situation. My Mom was one of my best friends. Even a remote chance of ending up like that pierces my minds eye. She never got to see me graduate University, get a great career and have children.
I am struggling at the moment to make the best decision. One that will allow me see my kids to the point where they have there own careers and families. Its my duty to love, nurture and teach my kids everything I know. Finding out the best path to try to achieve this is not a easy task. My family is great especially my wife, I don't want to let anyone down.
