Tim,
Hi. I can understand some of your thoughts. I am 60, been declared as qualified for disability, but what I would get doe snot even cover my house payment.
I do plan ahead, Lord will'en to be faithful and enjoy the family and friends I have. Taking time each day for Spiritual inventory is my ticket for life.
It is not easier, it had not gotten better, but we can be stronger, we can develope character virtues that see us through to the over side!
Jude 21
keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord ... to bring you to eternal life.


I keep the New Covenant,
when I fail....I am pulled
back into place by HIM.