hey Joeseph,
we here totally understand your situation, sometimes we are damned if we do and damned if we don't. Your health is your wealth, I am poor now, had a good job, a family, and all the trimmings of a middle class life, the A.S. took that away from me piece by piece, and most of us here have lost wages, and spent a lot of money fighting it. So yes having it is an expensive must. I was disabled before I ever even had a job, but I did manage to work until age 48. keep taking that much medication and you will wind up with gastritis like I did, and then it will go from bad to worse. if you have A.S. and your not depressed, that means your mentally ill. I would find it odd to see someone suffer for a lifetime and not feel depressed along the way. I would suggest you keep working part time if your able, even if the financial reward is questionable. in the end the disease will decide for you. If I had any advice, it would be this, be proud of who you are, regardless. People who know you, know you suffer, even though others cant feel the severity. I had to come to realize how those around me viewed me. when I became disabled permanently some people commented I was disabled before I became disabled. All anyone, and everyone can do in life is fight a good fight. I realize my life will be shortened due to A.S. and my quality of life isn't all that, but the quality of my spirit kicks butt. These days I live a good life still, and even though it may not seem glorious, its my life, and I am thankful to have lived it. the best thing you can achieve in this life is peace. know this, people love you regardless of what you may or may not accomplish, even if you had lots of money, you would still have the A.S. monkey riding your back, then you would just be the old rich guy with a limp. so in the end all that matters is you understand that the period between stabbing shots of pain is pretty good. The people who know you love you more than you realize, and and some ways respect you, in a different way. I for one respect the guy in the wheelchair for fighting his good fight.But seriously, those are too many pain pills mr. If they were working, you would not need 6 a day. I caution you again, don't sacrifice your guts in the name of a job.
