Hello, Joe:
Regret most of us have spun out of control at times due to AS. Problem has always been that we continue making the same choices expecting a different outcome.
AS should be incentive enough to try something quite radical; if You had, starting when You joined in February, 2011, Your story might be very different by now!
I can only with deliberate sincerity wish You the best of luck, and hope for You renewed
HEALTH,
John