Im sorry to hear about how awful the pain clinic treated you. I wish people had more compassion for others, and actually did their jobs correctly. It hurts when the people we go to for help, because we need them to prescribe us medicine, make our lives worse with their uncaring, inadequate, and substandard care. I think they become jaded, are just in it for the money, and act unethically because they can get away with it.
Keep your head up. Keep fighting the good fight. The world is harsh, cruel and unfair, but it is also full of beauty, love and kindness. Just dont let the bad things drag you down and know you are a better, more compassionate person because of your struggles. I hope things improve for you.
