Thanks a bunch.
I have to ring my doc from yrs ago before I moved to Bribie. I seem to remember him putting me on Celebrex. It just sounds too familiar. If it is what I remember it made me feel realy sick.
But I cant be positive so I will ring and see what they say.

I have heart pulpitations and a bad tummy so I am worried about that. I take somac for my acid but one of the things it says on the ssz is not to take the somac 2hrs either side of taking the ssz as it needs the tummy acid or something.

I guess I just got super emotional and worried yesterday from a combination of things.
The reaction to the oxy realy scared me. I felt like I was dying literaly. Then being at the funeral and seeing the 2 boys supporting their mum and losing their dad while they are stil young. I guess I am just scared that will happen.
I know that is extreme and not something I should worry about but I just couldnt/cant help it. I kind of feel like well pain wont kill me. I might want to kill me, but pain wont kill me. But the side effects of the meds could. And I would feel guilty that I risk that just so that I have a little less pain.

I know this is silly to think like this but I just cant help it.
I am not used to putting myself first. Thats just me. You know how it is. I grew up on the farm and everything else comes first.

Then the rheumy scared me a little. We were talking about the pains I get in my chest. I had just got to a point where I convinced myself it is just the AS and not having a heart attack everytime and then the rheumy goes and says I should never ignore chest pain and should always get it looked at.
Now if thats the case I would be calling the ambulance every other day.

I realy dont think I can handle the stress from taking the meds and worrying that something will go wrong. I just cant do it.

I know none of this probably makes sense to any of you. I just thought I would try and explain this is a realy big problem for me. My head is a huge problem for me. And I dont know how I can fix that.
Thanks again for everything and notice I didnt say sorry for this rant. lol.