Hi Thomas
I feel for what your going through with your cancer treatment. I watched a dear dear friend try as he may to hold onto life. I cried until I could cry no more, this dear man's will for life was strong. This man 32 all that was left was skin an bone, yet he held on. He loved his family, and thought they could not carry on without him. Even though Dwayne new there was no chance of life, it wasn't til his wife asked him to go to god, that she would be alright, that he finally passed.
I don't wish this for you, I could see you have the will to fight, and it's my wish that you keep fighting, and be cured of this ugly disease.
I don't understand why you want to hurt others.
Hypocondria - extreme depression of mind or spirits often centered on imaginary physical ailments
Monchausin by proxy - usually a mother who lives off of the attention her children get when treated by doctors.
I can only talk about myself here. Am I a Hypocondriac who is in extreme depression of mind or spirits that my aiments are often centered on imaginary physical ailments.
All my DIAGNOSED ILLNESS (HLA B27+ AS diagnosed by ex-doctor - "(I wouldn't have believed you have Ankylosing Spondylitis)", and I have many other AS symptoms (documented). After many months of asking for a Bone Density test - under duress my ex-doctor finally sent me for the test. It came back positive for Osteopenia, borderline Osteoprosis.
I have elevateled liver enzymes (about 7 years now), which now my new doctor believes yet not diagnosed could be NASH, or Auto-immune Hepatitis. I have a cysts in between by disk on my lumbar spine. I have a cyst on my left adrenal gland. I paracardial infusion small amount on my heart. I have lung damage, which is showing mild COPD. I have other severe breathing disorders (Severe Obstructed Sleep Apnea), Bronchial asthma, ongoing bronchitis, and narrowing airway. Diagnosed March 2007 with severe Central Auditory Processing Disoder.) (Ex-doctor didn't believe I had this disorder because I wasn't stupid??? (I am not) I've this disorder all my life, but and maybe because of another auto-immune disorder (cogan's syndrome), it's getting worse. New doctor believes it could be Neurological. (The list goes on and well documented).
I have been told I have MS (diagnosed by Urologist). I have been diagnosed with Sjogrens by my dentist. Now they are looking into Lupus as well.
Not one doctor has said I have extreme depression because of imaginary physical ailments.
As for Munchausin by proxy - My mother (heck I haven't seen her in eight years) and my very dear friends here they don't feed off of my illnesses, they have enough of there own, as do I.
Who (you) like seeing others in pain, does it make your pain less. I am sure that everyone here suffer pain, and deals with it the best they can. Do you think others feed off of the pain of others, your pain, that makes them feel better, I don't think so.
As I have no choice but deal with my pain, without the use of any type of medication, I do have a lot of depression. It's because of this depression that I seek the love, caring and guidances from my dear friends here at KickAS. Without them being there for me, ending my life didn't look bad.
HUGS
Gerri
