Hi,
Well, I just wanted to say that I totally understand that deep fear of "how can I take care of myself?" It is such a vulnerable feeling, not knowing. It reminds me of a sense the poem Question by May Swenson.
However, I wanted to give you encouragement and hope by telling you that my AS mentor is a horticulture therapist. She gardens and plants with people who have special needs. She puts in hours in her garden, doing lots of lifting. She paces herself, and she gets lots of treatments throughout the week, takes good care of herself. But basically she is kicking A$S out there and she is in her 50s.
Rest, laugh, relax and heal. This flare too shall pass.
Your blog looks amazing and I'm planning on curling up and reading it later today this rainy day.
Awfully nice to meet you, glad you are here even though I wish you didn't have this pain.
Take care,
