I am sure that the time of year isn't helping anything as I usually notice my moods not being as bright and happy during January/February. But this year it has been much different, much stronger than in the past. In the past even at my worst I still had a sense of optimism that it would blow over soon and not be a big deal. Lately, I've not been optimistic at all. Pain levels vary from day to day. I just started enbrel last week, so I am really hoping it helps. Also started percocet last week as well and I simply take them when I need them. Had previously used Tylenol 3 but they just were not effective enough.

My wife is really pushing me to go see the pyschiatrist, but I am hesitant because I am afraid its gonna be another pill to take and I don't want to have to take any pills at all. I am hoping that some basic counseling will be sufficient as I am reluctant to agree to taking any new meds.

If you wanna live life on your own terms
gotta be willing to crash and burn