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Great Idea johnny.... I hate AS.......I hate you so much AS...... I want my old life back. I dont want much.....just to be able to run with my girls....take them to activities they want. I hate having to ask my 8yr old to help me lift my 18 mos old in to the car. I hate that my neck is so frickin' stiff....it makes driving difficult. I wish I had never had back surgery b/c of you AS. Now I have more pain thanks to you. I want to be able to tend to my once cute garden. I want to do yard work....and feel sore good......not sore -bad!! I want to grab my girls and whirl them around with all my heart.....till they cant take it anymore....AS has taken that away. I dont want to be whining and grumpy anymore. I dont want to be grouchy with my girls....it's not their fault mom's in bad shape. I want them to tackle me and it not lock up my hips or back.........AS you are so ruthless........just like all the other diseases out there. You trick us into believing one day we'll feel great....then slam us to the ground the very next day. What you dont know is that I have lots of "ammo"......I have my girls...my Arthur.....and most of all my kickAs friends who will help me get through this disease.....so try as you might.....you are NOT bringing me down......because I WILL get back up......dust myself off......and keep on kickinAS !!  Thanks for letting me vent..... I am now vent free after several deep cleansing breaths......  Take care! Toodles! Angie  
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To: AS
From: ME We've only been formally introduced now for a couple of months. I can't say it has been a pleasure meeting you but I do have great satisfaction in letting you know how I feel about you!!!!! You have secretly been tormenting my life for the past 17 years....attacking me in unexplainable ways ...... so that I even began to question my own sanity and what I was going through. You made a damn fool of me as I went from doctor to doctor searching for answers....only to be turned away over and over again. You have totally demoralised me turning me into something I don't want to be....sometimes even hating the person I have become. You have deprived me of being the mother and wife I always wanted to be....sometimes turning me into such a monster that I didn't even want to live with! You took away all the things I loved doing.....all the things that meant so much to me.....you took away the quality of life every person deserves. You tried so damn hard but you didn't succeed in taking my family away from me. My family's overwhelming love and belief in me made me strong enough to fight you throughout the days when I didn't even know you....but now that we have finally met ...... I have the strength & determination to fight you to THE END! Very very theraputic........didn't realise I hated this damn thing so much!!! Thanks for the chance to vent!!!!
"If you judge people, you have no time to love them." Mother Teresa
[align center][fuchsia]  I travelled through a strange path to get there... but made it in the end ~ M.C.L.
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Hi
I've been Lurking on and off for years now. Your info. and concern for each other has been facinating.
I'm amazed how this subject has affected me. For the first time I find myself unable to just read on, yet I can't express how I feel. The tears just keep flowing.
Thanks for the emotional release.
Ki
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Hi Ki, Welcome to the site. Very glad to meet you. I am very glad that you have been moved to post. It is truly terrible what AS takes from us, yet wonderfull that we have this fabulous family here at KA to keep us going. Take care my friend Daniel  Keep on keepin on Kicking some AS
Take care my friend,
I hope this finds you well,
Daniel
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Wow. I dont think it can be said better than that Daniel. Hi Ki, and welcome to posting! Looking forward to getting to know you better. Hugs,
Jeanna
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WELCOME Ki! This is certainly the place to be......you will get guidance, love & understanding from everyone here!! I did! Take Care Ann "If you judge people, you have no time to love them." Mother Teresa
[align center][fuchsia] I travelled through a strange path to get there... but made it in the end ~ M.C.L.
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Supreme_AS_Kicker
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Supreme_AS_Kicker
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Hi Kirsten, I'm so pleased you decided to register a username. Welcome to our band of variously merry and not-so-merry ASkickers. Releasing the emotions like you allowed yourself to do will certainly help. Now let us pick you up and become your friends to help you through the pain, and maybe help banish it too. Loz :) 
Loz - Life isn't always a matter of holding good cards, but sometimes of playing a poor hand well.
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Ok, here we go. I hate you AS. You try to make me think that you and I are one, that I am you and you are me. You leech my strength, tap my pride, hide my motivation, and then you start working on taking my body apart piece by piece. You have a hitlist of everything that I love and care for on it, and you do everything is your damn power to check off everything on that list. You have allready destroyed my marriage with the woman I love. You got me kicked out of school. You are working so hard to get me fired from my job. And so hard to ruin my confidence that I will ever be loved again. You have put me in the hospital too many times, even in the *&%^ing loony bin. My happiness is on that list, my freedom is on that list. You take as much of my money and give it to doctors, insurance companies, drug companies, therapists, chiropractors, massage and physical therapist!  to change one of my favoriite Jim Croche songs, "If I had a box just for wishes, and dreams that would never some true, the box would be empty of wishes, and full of dreams that will never come true, and all becasue of you!" I am a man, or should I phrase that I was one. I hate how AS has changed this in me. I am provider for the household, but not for long, thanks AS. I am supposed to be able to climb any mountain, open any jar, and take on any challenge for the my lady. Oops, I used to fit that description, but not anymore, thanks again AS. Now I get to have doors opend for me because I have a cane, thanks AS, what I allways wanted, NOT. I have a bag to carry around as big as most purses filled with a oharmacy of drugs from narcotics to meds that, if taken by a woman, cause immediate abortion, how lovely, thanks AS. Isn't it wonderfull to lead a life where you feel really good if you are not in pain. Where that is the main concern. Where feeling good is not because of the people getting married, your team winning, seeing a child pick a flower or watching the sun-rise. These no longer feel as wonderfull or miraculus as the 5 minutus where you think, "wow, I'm not in pain, this is the first time in 2 years!" Thanks AS. You would think that you would get used to the pain. I have had this pain for 6 years now, and I am not used to it. Unless I am wrong, I never will get used to it. Everyone thinks that we don't notice our own pain every waking moment and most sleeping ones, they think we have adjusted or that out pain is equal to a paper cut, and not even one that you can feel for the rest of your life. I hate you AS, you have put a shroud over the sun, have hardened my heart, locked my jaw, closed my eyes, and destroied or are destroying everything dear to me. I Hate you AS, and if I had any power to do so, I would kill you. without ANY remorse. I will fight you because I hate you, and although I know that it is futile, it must be done. Keep on Keeping on, my friends, Keep on venting on (this forum) It's theraputic Daniel Keep on keepin on Kicking some AS Edited by DanInDC on 04/04/02 05:21 AM (server time).
Take care my friend,
I hope this finds you well,
Daniel
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Supreme_AS_Kicker
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Loz: Look here AS, I'm afraid I'm going to have to ask you to leave.
AS: What's brought this on all of a sudden?
Loz: It's not really sudden, I've been uncomfortable having you around for quite some time now. Look, I hate to appear inhospitable, but I do feel you've rather out-stayed you welcome.
AS: But look at all these friends I've introduced you to!
Loz: Well, yes, I conceed that you have introduced me to some very special people from all over the world, nevertheless, enough is enough, and time to pack you bags.
AS: Hmph! I call that ungrateful! I mean to say, have you not become a more considerate and understanding man since I moved in?
Loz: I see what you're saying AS, and yes, I do now smile at strangers in wheelchairs rather than looking and then immediately looking away. And yes, I do listen to peoples complaints about aches and pain where before I may have changed the subject, but just look at what you've done to my patience!
AS: What I'm trying to do to your patience, thank you very much, is hone it - tuning it to be a much greater patience than it ever was before.
Loz: Not making a terribly good job of that though are you?
AS: I don't really think I can take the blame for you not learning from my teachings
Loz: You're not exactly making this easy are you?!
AS: I don't see why I should, it's you that's trying to kick me out remember.
Loz: I see you're upset, perhaps we can work things through. What about if I agree to do all my exercises - will you then at least give me a short break, for instance you could go out for the evening one in a while ...
AS: I suppose I could manage that.
Loz: And if I try all the alternatives, however whacky they may appear, would you be a less tiresome houseguest then?
AS: I can't promise, but I do enjoy trying new things, it'll likely make me less irritable at least.
Loz: You wouldn't just consider calling a day though - and going for good?
AS: Can't help you there, you know I'm a permanent fixture really, don't you?
Loz: Yes, I know. I suppose I need to work on acceptance, to try being the me I am and making the best of it, letting go the bitterness, the anger, the disappointment, the resentment, the....
AS: Oh be quiet and go an answer another post!
Loz: OK, I will.......
Loz - Life isn't always a matter of holding good cards, but sometimes of playing a poor hand well.
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I hate this disease and what it has made me become, i hate that it has made me think about taking my own life, i hate AS that it makes me feel worthless.....i hate they way one day you feel ok and the next you feel rough as rats.....I hate what it has done to my body, my mind, my soul..... I hate knowing that there are plenty of others suffering the same and even suffering worse then i do..... I hate that i cannot do the things i did a year ago, i hate they way ive had to change my life to suit this darn AS..... I Hate what side effects you get from trying to make yourself feel better..... I hate the uneducated people on this disease, who think just because you walk and look normal your ok and i hate having to explain myself to these people..... I hate the not knowing of what the future holds for me and you(AS)..... I hate being a burden to my family and partner......I hate the jealousy people get(i mean why are they jealous of me getting a mobiltity car) they can have my Disease...... I hate having AS . thanks for that Amanda.....take care   HAPPY EASTER
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