Oh Scotty, I have been thinking of you. I, too, have to make an effort to get out of the house every day. It is so easy to stay in and the longer you do, the easier it is.
I understand so much how you want your old life back. Scotty, a lot of years ago (and I was going what you are with my early diagnosis) my doctor told me "You are not going to believe this but this is going to become the norm" and I told him it would "never" be the norm but you know what....it is.
It has been so many years that this is my normal life and it is a darn good one. Just hold on Scotty. Know we are all here rooting for you and praying for you. This, too, shall pass and it will become the norm for you. Not that any of us want a new norm.
I do know how you feel. My hubby has dealt with extreme depression so of course I have lived it right along with him.
I know it is the pits
It stinks.
No one should have to deal with this
Just want you to know that we all understand and I wuld imagine that most of us have been right where you are.
I hope you call your dr. and let him know how you are. You may need to admit yourself to the hospital and let them work out your medications in a controlled environment. We have been there too and it works so much faster. When a goofy dr. decided to change my hubby's meds, she threw him for a loop by stopping his old one's cold turkey and was waiting 8 days to start a new one. (nothing at all wrong with his old one. She just thought she knew better.
Can laugh now. Was horrible at the time.
My hubby agreed that he needed to be in a hospital setting and he was home in 4 days with his meds worked out and right back where he was. He just needed to be there for the supervision and seeing what worked and what didn't work. He says it is the best thing we ever did and I agree.
There is nothing different about going into the hospital for depression treatment than there is in going to the hospital for AS or anything else treatment.
I am thinking of you.
Blessings.
Possi
