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For me- Peace came through Faith & with the idea that I will never "get there" but that is ok. Just like my covenant with God is based on doing willingly what I can and then letting go with the things that are beyond reach.
I do my best, which some days seem very limited, and then I let God do the rest.
I also think that there can be moments of surge, or of flooding within our souls that allows us to carry on. Anger can be our friend, but it must be tamed and directed.
There may be years ahead, where you are much better, health wise than you are now.
Death has a purpose, but let's not rush the event.
How can I help?

Your friend
Lon