Hello old and new friends..
I come here once again for support. Any and all prayers are welcome. I am completely heartbroken. We lost my grandma Luisa Monday morning due to complications from Dementia. This is devastating as we had lost our Aunt Susie her daughter/my mom's older sister to brain cancer just this past December. This is my momma's momma. We loved her immensely. We knew it was coming. We all said our goodbyes. Yet the pain was still unbelievable. Still walking around in a daze. She lived a long life as she would have been 86 next month. We are worried about my grampa Memo who is now 89 and suffering from exhaustion and vertigo.
I get up today to visit my brother because that SAME morning we find out my younger brother's appendix ruptured and he was in serious shape. Big incision and a part of his intestine was removed. They are pumping him full of antibiotics. He'll be there for 5 days! He's only 39 and I believe he inherited the dreadful intestinal disease we got from our granpas side. Then I call my Dad...to let him know. He is remarried and I wont get into my dreadful stepmother ..but he is at the hospital when i call to his work to inform him! Chest pains. He's had a heartattack in the past. He has angina and insulin dependant diabetic. They were in the SAME hospital!! He had been in and out all week in bad shape. Unknown what is causing it. I went over to the hospital thanks to my uncles help and found him! they were literally less than 6-7 rooms away from each other!
I am so so tired. I feel like i am falling apart. But I cant. I have my Momma to support right now. She is holding strong but I know tomorrow is the rosary and the funeral and I'll have to be even stronger. I sleep but have a terrible headache and feel I am wandering around like a zombie.
I try to be a tough bug but my back is on fire and I pray nothing happens to my Dad..he is a wonderful man. Love him so much.
Any prayers, good thoughts would be appreciated. I am fighting hard to keep down the straight line...but it's so so hard.
sorry to ramble...i just feel so overwhelmed.
Much love to you all and pain free days.
Buggy
