Sitting here trying to unwind after tough day and tougher last week. Diane is having a less than wonderful pregnancy. I have this built in immunity to crises but worry because of how difficult every day of her pregnancy has been. It kills me to see her frightened for a second and I act like she's taking things too tough because she needs the postive reinforcement BUT when is anything in my or her life gonna be easy. I have AS and have it to the umpteenth degree, she has walked such a hard road it seems improbable that we'd meet and find happiness. Now all we want is family and it has been like waging a war. Finally she's prgenant and it's three so first wee're scared then we're feeling blessed and now every day is another scare of loss of one or more. I've been to hell and back and like most of you I spit on the devil's shoes every morning just to get out of bed, But this sweet little lady could use a big TIME OUT. I hope it's coming.
stevec-they also serve who stand and wait
