Hello to all,
I'm sorry to take so long to get back to all of you. We went back to the Cleveland Clinic Wed. to talk to the drs. concerning my doing the trials for the kidney cancer.
We all agreed, me mostly, that I am too tired and nowhere near strong enough to take the trial medicine. The trials are experimental, meant to find how far the body will go before it gives up. I just don't feel like I can be someones guinea pig right now. It's been a bad kind of couple of weeks and I've been telling my husband if thais is the best life has to offer I'm not interested. I need some quality here.
I haven't felt good at all since before last Feb. and even before that truthfully. I worked and slept that was it. Those closest to me here know I haven't been good for a very very long time
One dr. asked if I was interested in time and I said yes. I'm much better with truth than guesses. We are not God and anything miraculous can happen but no one lives with this cancer. They said 6 months, I felt that already.
Today I signed up for the Hospice program here, they will help with so much. I already have a brand new wheel chair so I could have a bit of freedom. With the oxygen and the walker I was spending a lot of days in bed........hating that.
Please don't think I don't believe in prayer and miracles.......I do and I'm not giving up but I've got to get through the day here and it's getting very hard to do.
Please keep the prayers coming, I need your strength so much, now more than ever.
love to all of you............................
linda
