Just wanted to let everyone know I haven't fallen over a cliff or anything. Thanks for the hugs and kind thoughts to my last post. I'm sorry I'm not posting like I used to. Maybe this post will explain why.
I'm still feeling terrible. Pain levels are quite high. I think I'm finally recovering from the flu. I'm no longer fevering/chilling/fainting any more. The nice part is I lost 15 pounds, but what a way to do it. My iritis flare from December is still hanging around. Sometimes I just wish I could leave this body for a while. I hurt all over worse than anyplace else.
I dropped out of school Monday. I hated to do it. I'm not a quitter by any means, so this was a painful decision to make. I will miss it, but I don't do well when I'm loaded with pain meds, and definately don't do well without pain meds.
Something had to go in my life as I just am not coping. I made a big batch of no-bake cookies for my classmates (all teenage boys) and they all said they would miss me. I think they'll miss the treats more.
Yesterday evening after work, Roger headed to town to pick up a load of water, and I decided to tag along. We ended up getting run over by a UPS truck. I'll still a bit shook up, and will probably be picking glass slivers out for weeks to come and fighting infection. I didn't realize how far shattered windows go. And when you're already in the ditch, where can you go? First bad word I've said in a long time. I called the driver a puss-gut. And now I just broadcasted it over the internet.
Looks like they were right, I am turning into a bad girl.
Still working on my son's wedding. Hopefully doing a bit of sewing every day will get it done. My children are helping. Even had my future daughter-in-law ironing and cutting fabric. She may make a good wife by the time I'm through with her.
I have a rhuemy visit tomorrow in Altoona. I'm NOT looking forward to the l-o-n-g drive. Riding in a vehicle makes my neck worse. (especially if someone runs into us) Hopefully the x-rays will show what's going on in my neck. I just don't think I could live through an MRI. (I probably could, I'm just feeling whiny about it all.) My hands are getting worse and I'm getting to the point where I can hardly walk because of the pain. I'm also having problems with balance. I'm terrified of falling in the wrong place. I've taken a few tumbles here at home, but not hurt myself more than just a few bruises.
I guess life goes on. I am so grateful for KickAS. Here I have found friendship, information, understanding, and even had a bit of fun now and then. I'm sorry that I'm not able to participate like I used to, but I can blame it on AS and FMS. I think I may have the battle between my ears won, but it looks like I'm losing the war from the neck down. I'm still planning on going to the Mid-West Blowout, even if I have to be carried in on a stretcher. So watch out, this hillbilly is still kicking.
Hugs,
Cindy
Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.
