Erica,
When most of the family has gone, and reality of never being able to hold you lovely daughter again, sets in deeper and deeper, I encourage you to remember that all of life is a gift. She was a wonderful precious gift from God that made you better and stronger. God knows the ache in your heart, I think he would have you comforted with the reminder that she is now in the presence of complete LOVE.
Ps 51:17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.

Ps 119:32 I run in the path of your commands,
for you have set my heart free.

When my heart is overwhelmed, and I seem to be in the desert place, I often learn the most important lessons.

Brotherly Love
Lon