:(Hi Rumble,
You are right, right, right and that is what I decided to do. Make no decision's until my depression lift's. It just takes so darn long.

I have a ton of craft's that I used to enjoy but I don't even want to leave the bedroom right now. I have no desire to do anything. Everything look's hopeless right now. I know it's all the depression along with agoraphobia. I will start seeing a new psychologist this Thursday as mine has been gone for month's and is now sick. I don't like my Psychiatrist at all but she handles my pain med's so Thursday when I see this new psychologist, I will ask her what I should do.

Thank's for the reply! Have a blessed day!

(((((hugs)))))

Thank's Jan, I need all the hugs anyone wants to give.

Oh Pea
I just read this and my heart goes out to you. I wish there was some way to take your pain away. It seems so unfair all that we have to go through and then be asked to take on more. I hope you are able to break the stress, pain, depression cycle and fast. If you could put your relationship with your husband aside for a while and just worry about yourself for the time being. You need to be in a good place both body and mind before you can make good decisions.Some soul searching and time to reflect and sort everything out in your head is probably needed before you move forward. THEN on your terms meet him in a public place talk to him and then tell him what you want to do.

I hope that helps and you can work things out.

Thank's Jeff,

I just got told this morning that I am suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder due to my family turning on me. I called my Primary Dr. who is a Psychiatrist/Naturalpathic primary care physician. I don't trust any of these other Dr.s I am on nothing for depression and just suffer daily. There is no where for me to go right now because I can't think clearly. The pain Dr. at first though the Savella would help with the depression but now she think's it is making it worst! I don't think she know's what she is talking about so that is why I am called my primary. All I do is stay in bed and cry!

To think that just last year I was the Director of Women's Ministry's and teaching bible school and now here I am with PTSD.

Pea,
This is a brutal disease.
I would ask for a medication - cymbalta works for me..
do any of your ladies come over for prayer and fellowship:
call them, a few of the quiet but strong sisters who beleive in prayer.
Sit in the sun:

Ps 23:4

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
NKJV



Ps 61:3-4
3 For You have been a shelter for me,
A strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings.
NKJV

Ps 116:2
2 Because he turned his ear to me,
I will call on him as long as I live.
(from New International Version)

Ps 3:3-4

3 But You, O LORD, are a shield for me,
My glory and the One who lifts up my head.
4 I cried to the LORD with my voice,
And He heard me from His holy hill.
NKJV

Ps 28:7
7 The LORD is my strength and my shield;
My heart trusted in Him, and I am helped;
Therefore my heart greatly rejoices,
And with my song I will praise Him.
NKJV

Ps 100

Make a joyful shout to the LORD, all you lands!
2 Serve the LORD with gladness;
Come before His presence with singing.
3 Know that the LORD, He is God;
It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves;
We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.

4 Enter into His gates with thanksgiving,
And into His courts with praise.
Be thankful to Him, and bless His name.
5 For the LORD is good;
His mercy is everlasting,
And His truth endures to all generations.
NKJV

agape'
Br'er Lon

;)Thank's Lon for the scripture. It is all I have right now. No friends are coming by. Very disappointed in both churches that I go to right now for not calling or coming over.

The book of Job, your being tested?.... endure.

Hi Pea, I have been reading your posts but have not commented as I haven't known what to say.
I have experienced some of what you are dealing with. Hubby had me driving myself to the hospital with allergic reactions, blood clots among other things. He just didn't see the seriousness of it all. I have to say he is much better now though.

As for friends I am a cow and just keep throwing it in their face until they deal with it. It is the only way I know. Not that it works very well.

Anyway I just wanted to send my love and hope things improve for you.
All the best
xxxx

Pea, have you talked to anyone from the two churches to let them know what is going on? Perhaps they think that you don't want to see them. I think you need to talk to some of those people and give them a chance to help.