You are to be commended for going to school and improving your mind. When this is done in adulthood, it is to be doubly-commended. When it is done while suffering a major disorder such as AS, it is to be triply-commended. And making A+ on tests.....you guessed it----quadruply-commended.



I totally understand this tiredness...I need every hour of the 16 that I'm not working to rest up from the 8 that I do work. And need every weekend to get over the last week of working. Went to school as an adult--age 47--med tech school. For a complete year (one 2 week break) I lived from test to test. School like this is incredibly stressful. Keep going...keep your eye on the prize of graduation. You will make it.

today started wrong. I woke up, got dressed, went to put on deodorant. Open the cap and the contents fall out. No problem. I toss the container and get the spare I'd bought. Opened it and the contents for it also fell out!

Today I am miserable. Grouchy as heck. I just want to scream 'leave me alone!' but can't. Haven't been feeling well for a couple of days. very tired and blah feeling. I handed in two assignments today. Pushed myself hard so I could leave the college at 2:30 pm.

Our math instructor was really angry today. the younger 'girls' were very ignorant to him. I felt very sorry for him.

I am still failing algebra. Just can't grab the concept of it. it is like I have a huge brick in my head which won't let me scrawl on it. total blockage. I sense a repeat of my long ago statistics university exam.

I will just sit down, write my name on the paper, spend 15 minutes with it and then get up and leave.

If someone would just tell me is it better to have an VW (voluntary withdrawal) or a straight F on the course for my transcript? I can then make my final decision on this course. I am too proud to take a straight F. I fail to see why on earth I have to know how to graph algebra onto a chart when all the first year of my course will enable me to be is just a secretary!

I don't know of any employer who would want a secretary to graph a chart rather than answer the phone! What a dumb course! grrrrrrrr

I am eating way too much or must be because I can see the fat rolls when I look in the mirror. I will see the doctor next week to speak to him about the Celexa and Dostinex fighting with each other. I will also be asking him to send me for another MRI as yesterday my boobs were leaking like they did before the tumor was dx'd.

My periods are coming sooner and sooner and I am getting crankier and crankier. Heck I can't stand myself most days. lol

thank you, Rumble. I am beyond exhausted most days. I live for seeing the clock turn to 4:30 'cause that means I can ride the bus for an hour to get home. (switch buses twice each way I go. So 4 buses each day.)

I guess what I am finding incredibly hard is 'understanding' what I am reading. Because I have a tumor some days I feel like I am reading Greek and being asked to write my answers in French. Hope this makes sense!

My brain has a most annoying habit of counting typos made in every single timed speed test I do. If I am able to stop paying attention to the 'typos', I get a decent typing score. But nine times out of ten the subconscious mistake counting trips me up and I just get a 5 words per minute score.

I have resorted to typing a single word each letter at a time, very slowly. Otherwise I type too fast for the machine to keep up with me and trip myself up! lol

first, sorry today is such a crummy day! TGIF! and even better, thank goodness tomorrow is saturday! though we may have schoolwork on the weekends, at least we can be in the comfort of our own home!

as for a withdrawal vs an F, withdraw from the class now! W's are fine, especially if you go back and ace the course later. or if you decide you no longer need the course, its fine to have just the W. you can easily explain it away. F's are much harder to explain a way and add into your overall GPA. i of course encourage my students to do the best they can without throwing in the towel, but when it becomes clear that they will end up with a D or F and more importantly won't have learned what they need to learn on the topic, then i encourage them, and help them withdraw. that is my advice.

feel better you, ok?

thank you, sue! big hug. that was my thoughts exactly! I know I am 85% through this course but I look it at this way I AM willing to retake it next term. maybe by that time they will be able to find a tutor or something for me.

Right O, Tuesday morning I am withdrawing from Business Math. And with that I am registering for the course I originally wanted to take - Web Design.

So next year in September 2011 I will be starting Web Design. I am chasing a dream by taking this course. I want to work for Google or some other big company. And I can do it. I know I can.

Definitely withdraw now. W is better than an F. And I believe the F stays on the transcript. If you retake the class and pass, the F is overwritten, but if you find you don't need the class, that F is still there messing up your overall GPA. Get out now.

If you have to take it later, maybe having a different teacher will make all the difference in the world.

Fridays suck. Went in to work this afternoon and found there was mayhem in all directions. It didn't really get better as the night went on, either. So if I didn't have to take my MTX tonight, I'd be having an adult beverage instead of the juice I'm drinking now.

Hope you are feeling a little better tonight, Magic. Hugs to you.

It's wonderful when you can find the field you want to be in. Something that makes you want to get busy learning. You sound better already!

yes, absolutely! great suggestion! i concur.

awe, sorry! hugs to you too!

at least the weekend is here!

i didn't get enough sleep on thursday "night". so was in work only about 3-4 hours in the afternoon to do JUST exactly what was required of me. then came home, took my much needed walk, ate a small "dinner / snack" then crashed on the couch for about 4 hours straight, while my husband had the tv on, that's how exhausted i was! going back to bed shortly, for at least 8 hours, that should catch me up!

hope you can recover quickly from friday as well.

good for you! as rumble said: finding something you are passionate about is wonderful! sounds like you've hit on that!